A Journey of Self-Discovery: Drowning in My Whiteness
“What you think about grows.”
This simple truth has been changing my life.
Understanding My “Whiteness”
It’s hard sometimes to be a White.
No, I’m not talking about skin color — I’m talking about personality types. In the color code personality system, there are four primary colors: Red, Blue, Yellow, and White. Each one represents a distinct motivation and way of interacting with the world.
Here’s a link to a free test to see what your personality color is and to learn more about all the colors.
I am a White.
That means I value peace, kindness, and thoughtfulness. On the surface, that sounds wonderful. But living as a White also comes with its own set of struggles — especially when it comes to perfectionism.
Stuck in the Need to Be Perfect
When things don’t go the way I hoped, I don’t always bounce back. I freeze. I shut down. I get stuck in my head, caught in the loop of “I should have done it better.”
That perfectionism — one of the pitfalls of the White personality — has a way of silencing me. It holds me back.
I look around and admire the other colors:
- Reds push forward, bold and confident, always bringing their ideas to life.
- Yellows radiate joy. They dive into life with fun and laughter, unhindered by expectations.
- Blues build deep, meaningful connections and thrive in emotional closeness.
And then there’s me, a White — measuring, doubting, hesitating. Judging myself more harshly than anyone else ever could.
Breaking Free with the Master Key Experience
But here’s the truth: I am changing.
Through the Master Key Experience, I’ve been learning how to reshape my inner world. Some of the key lessons that have made an impact on me include:
🔑 What you think about grows.
🔑 Perfect practice prevents poor performance.
🔑 Thought + Feeling = Belief
These truths have become part of my daily life. When I feel myself spiraling into perfectionism, I stop and choose a new thought. I remind myself:
- I am nature’s greatest miracle.
- I can love myself and others without conditions.
- I don’t have to be perfect to make progress.
Am I applying it all perfectly yet? No. But I don’t need to. I’m committed to trying— and trying again. That is what matters.
A Work in Progress (And That’s Okay)
I’m not where I want to be yet. But I’m on the path. And that’s enough.
So if you’ve ever felt stuck in your own mind — held back by fear, self-judgment, or perfectionism — you’re not alone. You don’t have to stay stuck. You can change your thoughts. You can grow.
If this resonates with you, I’d love to hear your story.
➡️ What’s your personality color?
➡️ How do you navigate your own challenges and strengths?
Drop a comment below or share this with someone who might need a reminder that perfection isn’t the goal — progress is.
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I’ve learned there is no such thing as perfection. All things continue to grow and evolve, even when it seems it’s just right. And I think that’s true of you, Karen. You’re just right, and perfect where you are. You’ve already gone beyond, because you’re sharing an important perspective, not only for other white personality types, but for the other colors to get the inside scoop! Thank you for sharing!
Thank you for sharing this insightful perspective on the impact that ColorCode® and Master Key Experience have had for you!
Thanks Karen, What you think about grows is so huge with me. I’m sure my kids are tired of hearing it haha, but when they start on something negative its a quick reminder of what we wish to be focusing on. I choose to focus on kindness, love, and my growing Patience. Mahalo
I just love the title of your blog post, Karen. Thanks for your honesty in showing the pain and then how to get to the pleasure of the Color Code WHITE! (I’m a BLUE and I also have gotten stuck in the paralysis of not being perfect. I also have been helped by Og Mandino’s THE GREATEST SALESMAN–especially the scrolls that bring us the phrases “I act now” and “This too shall pass”. 🙂 Blessings on all our efforts to be our all.
Wow — what a beautifully honest and uplifting reflection! Your courage to share the inner workings of your White personality is so inspiring. I admire how thoughtfully you’ve turned self-awareness into self-kindness. Your words are a true gift — gentle, compassionate, and encouraging. You’ve created a safe space where we can all breathe easier and believe in progress over perfection. Thank you for being such a light. I’m cheering you on every step of the way! 🌟
Karen, you are following such a positive path to remedy the issues you have identified! Thank you for opening your life and showing us the page where you have engraved this new blueprint. And by way of example encouraged your readers to do the same. I know I will!
Karen, I am a fellow White who can totally relate to you. It definitely has been a journey of self-discovery and self-awareness through the Master Key Experience (MKE) course over the last several years. I am now thoroughly enjoying the growth and progress of this forward and upward journey as I am continuing to evolve and change through my daily life. Thank you for your authentic and honest sharing and enjoy this continuous journey of your own!