New year, new me. I call BS.

Looking Back

I was never a big ‘resolution’ person. I had figured out pretty early on that they never stuck, and it was a set up for failure. The difference is, now I know the science behind it.

Back then? I blamed myself, like I was defected. I am fairly sure that I am not the only one on this. I even got resentful of folks who managed to keep their resolutions, adding to the continuous self deprecating and self sabotaging cement I already had.

New Me a bit later

Fast forward a few decades. When I got sober, and began my healing journey, one could say I replaced one addiction for another. Haha. Only now I was obsessed with healing and fixing me. Programs, workshops, seminars, retreats, you name it, I was in.

I had hated myself and everything in the world for more years than I wanted to admit, and as I became willing, the light and love seeped in. It filled me in ways I cannot explain to this day, but I gave up needing to try.

New Me and the Master Key Experience

During this process, I stumbled along the Master Key Experience. There is an old saying “when the student is ready, the teacher appears”. Welp, I was ready, and here comes Mark lol.

The first session blew me away. The biggest thing (in my mind) on my DMP manifested quickly. It ripped away a ton of cement with it, and sent me on an emotional roller coaster for a few months.

My second year? I coasted. I did some of the things, but was almost afraid of what might happen if I threw myself all in. Then, this past summer I got real aggressive with a few things and was literally screaming “DO IT NOW!!!”

All I got to say is be careful what you wish for. Everything, and I mean EVVVVVVERYTHING that was not in alignment with what I wanted was ripped from my life. I even knew it at the time, and was a little upset with myself for being so direct.

What can I say, It’s a RED thing. Most of know we are right, and are ready to go full on in at any moment. Just ask us, lol.

New Me NOW

The past five months have been restructuring. I got licensed for a new career option. I am moving to a new location. I got a new job, etc. Ugh.

At the time, it seemed to be taking forever. Reds are all about that progress thing, ya know, and sometimes are impatient with it not being fast enough. Just saying.

So, what does this have to do with the new year, new me BS? I still did not make a resolution, nor do I plan to. Am I starting the year as a new me? Yes. But not because the calendar says January. It’s because I have done the work.

Even when it got ugly. Through the tears and some support from staff, I discovered the roots of what was holding me back. Do you understand how powerful that is? Instant memories of “you don’t deserve that,” or “no one wants to hear you.” came flooding in.

Breaking free of this, gives me my power back. It’s not a new me, it’s a huge step closer to my highest self, and the person I was meant to be. That, my friends, is way better than some new me BS.

New Me for the Future

As I continue to do the work, I get to become. May 2026, bring light, joy, healing, abundance in prosperity into every area of your life. And if you feel stuck, get over your own BS and do the work. Trust me, it really is worth it.